Hush baby, what’s the matter? What is wrong? Instead I scream, I shout, I lashed out again and I am so sorry, for I know I am wrong.
Hush baby, tell mummy what happened? Yet again, I’m so tired, my head is in a mess and now you’re trembling through thin skin.
Hush baby, I’m so sorry did that hurt? You barely trust me now, for you know how I will react and hide behind my skirt in my closet where I hang.
Hush baby, do you need a plaster for that? Barely able to look up at me through those gaping brown eyes, tear filled pupils and quivering top lip half cocked. “Let me just nod yes to shut her up, hide and go seek I play through my cuts”.
Hush baby, don’t you need me to help? By now you are scared of me and no longer need or even want my smell. Mummy knows baby, yes she does, and it is frightening how I know so very well.
Hush baby, why are you so quiet? Tell Mummy how you feel? “Are you really my mummy? For I no longer recognize that soft tone you’re using. Where has it been? I feel like I am caged in, though am not locked in a cell”.
Hush baby, Mummy will make it all better somehow. “I cannot even fathom whether that line has any bottle, as it leaks just like weathered spilt milk as you sing it over my rattle.”
Hush baby, I am trying but it is so cold. I never wanted to do this on my very own. If I could, I promise I would, for that extra blanket might of done us the world of good. Although its comfort is tainted and cloak standing free, I am screaming through its absence though I know it is only me you see…
To Be Continued…
Help support, uplift & guide Single Parents where you can, as emotional and mental breakdowns are number one causes of depression & low self esteem alongside domestic violence. Which in turn breeds frustrated individuals who then lash out on the closest to them, more often children but spouses and partners are also affected.
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