My Heart Beat Pt2
“Hush Mummy, though I’m small, I already know. It’s not hard to block out those late night muffled whimpers, from between duvet and pillow.
Through gritted teeth harsh words flare, but they too are frustrated, so they fly through one ear.
Half cocked eye lids you mould with a happy glaze, yet I can still see the scars you promise to hide, despite your Avon powdered eyes.
Hush Mummy, I crave you to understand, I can only identify with whom I know, for the Love I’ve unearthed is what truly helps me grow. No empty blanket can ease my pain, free standing cloak never sheltering me from rain.
There may well be things I lack, but I scream for who you were, who you are and what I have, Not whom never had our backs. Those excuses when they arise can never stand adjacent to all you provide, let alone all your endeavors which cry to strive.
Mummy, Mum, my Mother forever hold your head up high, for ONLY you and God above allowed me my only chance of life. You fought hard and gave me ‘us’, despite all those nasty messages which killed you inside and had you so lost. Those tears will surely scarper, so go ahead and release all pain inside. ALWAYS walk heart first, before allowing derogatory words to stop you from being praised and held up high.
So hush Mummy, do please remember I need you here, whole heart and soul, fighting through fear. With all your might, don’t worry with lack of time, or his tiny bouts of effort in. For all I know is, you love me from my hair follicles to my nails on my tiny beds of skin.
Not to mention sacrificing things you’ve effortlessly maintained, through smiles, grimace’s and or rain. I sense you’re pain no matter how mundane; I forgave you then, now, and always again, and again, and again.
You hush now Mummy; give me our special hug, whilst I pat you on your collar bone and wipe away the glum. It’s moments such as these, where I catch your smile in my eyes, which always kiss to fill my day, and wipe my fears aside.
Though for a while you tend to drift, I’ll embrace you’re scent upon my cheek. And even if for a moment’s peace you were gone. I know it’s not far and I am forever glad you always come back home.”
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